Waiting for Africa.

It's three days before the end of June. Those mission trips are supposed to be up by July 1st.

They still aren't.

My heart sinks so much whenever I see that page with "0 results listed." But it sinks less every time because I'm so expectant of disappointment.

I don't have a problem being patient, but I do have a problem with not having enough time to pray over my decision. I have not bathed this situation in enough prayer, but regardless of that, I'd like to spend a few days thinking about my decision after I have seen my choices. This is pretty huge. And the IMB is supposed to start delegating projects starting July 1st. I don't know all the specifics, but it seems like this kind of puts me in a rush.

It's not that I don't think God can work on quick decisions, just that I'd like to be wise and really listen to Him. Let my own novelty die a little while I listen to His divine knowledge. When I've made impulse decisions in the past, they don't always turn out right. And I guess I'm kind of scared of that happening, of regret creeping upon me. And I don't know if that will be Satan or just myself. Or God with conviction.

Maybe God wants to go about this a different way. I really don't know.

But at the moment, the situation is beyond my control. There are a lot of unknowns. And I will continue to wait on the Lord and trust Him. He's brought me this far. Please pray for my patience and quiet attitude, and for me to be diligent in asking the Lord for discernment and wisdom and... just Him. Thank you. I love you all and miss you so very very much!

"Yes, Lord, walking in the way of your laws, we wait for you; your name and renown are the desire of our hearts." Isaiah 26:8

-Rachel.